You're not here right now, I do miss you a lot. But I've learned and am changing myself. I won't hold you back ever again. I didn't do it on purpose. I just love you too much to let things go like that. But you took me wrong. I wasn't trying to control your life, I wasn't trying to make you claustrophobic. I was hurt that you thought so.

You know, all these months my only aim has been to make you comfortable around me. To make you feel like I'm a part of you and that I'll never leave. I wanted you to be sure of me. I wanted you to have your space and still have me in your life at the same time. You brought me into your life and made me a part of it everyday. And then you told me I suffocate you. I didn't understand.

I have let you go. I think I'm strong enough now. I need you in my life still, I do think about you like I used to. But I've changed. I won't tell you how much I miss you anymore. I won't hold you back again. I said those things because I wanted you to know how much I love you. I never thought you would take it any other way. But you misunderstood. You thought I was trying to control you. I wasn't. You said you're scared of me and feel that you're answerable to me for everything. I never wanted that. You think all I want is for myself to be happy. It's never been like that.

You know what the problem is? For me, my relationship is the most important thing. It always will be. I can never change that. No matter how big a problem is, no matter what happens, I'll still give everything to you. I only showed that to you thinking you would understand and respect it. You didn't. Instead you told me how I cannot be a priority to you. I don't want to be. I only want to be a part of your life to make you happy. But I'm far away now if that's what it takes to make you happy. I'll be like this because I don't want you to feel suffocated.

I know you said all those things in your anger. But you did mean some of it. I thought about it a lot. I used to tell you how much I miss you because it was the strongest feeling inside me. If you're out with people and are having a good time, it doesn't mean that I don't want you to. I only used to tell you that I missed you at that time because I really did. It did not mean that I didn't want you to have a great time. You already were, so I just thought I'll tell you what I feel. But now I won't anymore. You've gotten it all wrong. I'll leave it up to you. I've let you go.

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