I'm tired of wanting this, of needing you every time. There's this space inside of me, it's empty and you never fill it up. Why are you doing this to me? Why can't you be mine, why can't you hold me and tell me that everything will be alright?
Right now, I just can't stop thinking of you. How long should I carry on this way?

It's been four months and you still haven't come around. You look at me and expect me to understand. How long am I supposed to cry for you for? How long am I supposed to crave for you for?

You said you'd make amends; I know you're trying but I don't know how I'll manage now. I'm really trying too, even though I hardly get to see you alone, even though you pushed me away, I'm still here.

But now I can't take this for too long, I've got to do something. I need you the most right now and you're not there. I know that it isn't your fault, that you've got issues, but I really need you right now. And when I don't find you, it only makes me think more; it breaks my heart. It makes me wonder why I'm still here, why I'm still waiting for you. I love you too much now to move on; haven't I tried doing that already? I just can't seem to move on. The more I try, the closer you come. Why can't you let me go? If you did, maybe it'd be easier for me to stop thinking about you. But you know, even if you do let me go, I don't know how far I'll go, really.

I'm just tired. Of wanting you in my life, of wanting you to be a part and hold my hand. I'm tired of thinking about you loving me, just like I wanted. I'm tired of needing you; my heart calls out to you and my soul screams for you. I MISS YOU AND I NEED YOU.

I want to give up. Please don't let me.

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