You call me a whore almost every week. Sometimes, I don't know what I'm doing with you. I've lost my self-esteem, I'm not happy and I cannot bear to be beaten up again. Today you pushed me hard on the road in front of so many people. I can feel it starting all over again. You're not the one for me and you're right. We shouldn't be in this. I'm only waiting for myself to be strong enough to let you go. Why the fuck can't I do it yet? I want to end it. I want to be happy again. I don't want to be too scared to tell someone how I feel. I don't want to have to keep a distance so that even if I say anything, I don't get beaten up. I don't want to be with you. You made me so sad. You made me beg and plead for YOUR STUPID FUCKING ADDICTION. I want to leave, I WANT TO RUN AWAY. I WANT TO MARRY SOMEONE WHO IS NOT LIKE YOU IN ANY WAY. YOU DISGUST ME AND I'VE NEVER MET SOMEONE WHO IS AS PATHETIC AS YOU ARE. I HATE YOU THE WAY I LOVE YOU. I WANT TO STOP LOVING YOU AND JUST HATE YOU FOR A LONG, LONG TIME. SO LONG, THAT I FORGET WHAT LOVING YOU WAS LIKE. I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN, WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BELONG TO SOMEONE ELSE AGAIN. I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE A PART OF ME IN ANY WAY AND I WILL DO EVERYTHING I CAN, TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN. I HATE YOU AJAT. I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU NOW. YOUR HAIR, YOUR STUPID FUCKING LAUGH AND THE WAY YOU TALK. I HATE THE WAY YOU TOUCH ME AND I HATE THE WAY YOU CAN'T SPELL. I HATE THAT YOU DON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE IN GENDER WHEN YOU TALK. I HATE THAT YOU CAN'T EXPRESS YOURSELF TO ME. I HATE THAT YOU'RE SO WEAK AND THAT NO ONE IN THE WORLD KNOWS THAT. I HATE THAT YOU FEEL POWERFUL WHEN YOU SEE ME BEG.

I WANT TO RUN AWAY. SO FAR THAT I DON'T EVER SEE, TOUCH, FEEL OR HEAR YOU AGAIN. PLEASE LEAVE.

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