I feel like a stranger in your life. It isn't the same and we both know it. We don't trust each other and are too scared to tell each other anything. I don't know if it's okay to be with you anymore. I am the kind of person that you cannot deal with. You dislike things about me that make me who I am and you're never able to answer what you love about me. I don't think you know this but you don't love me for who I am. You're used to seeing me and tag me along when you've got to go to a place but how many times do we sit and talk to each other and enjoy that? We don't ever do it because you don't like doing that.

I am someone who needs constant reassurance. It's who I am. Maybe because I've been the only child so I've never had to be insecure. I am jealous and possessive and you cannot deal with that either. I've had to change myself as a person to be with you; I did that because I thought it was worth it. But I don't think it is anymore. Not with you threatening to push me away every time we have a fight. I did not expect you to be this weak. When I got into this with you, I hoped that you would try as hard as I was willing to. You did not try as hard. You gave in to screaming and shouting and beating me up when you lost control.

You ruined my birthday. Brought up a break up even on that day. It was a special day for me and you destroyed it in every way that you possibly could. You told me that you can't do stuff for me and that if I'm expecting a surprise, it'll never happen. I wasn't expecting a surprise. I was only expecting a quiet day alone with you. But you made me cry even that day. I'll never forgive you for that.

If you want a separate life then you should learn to have one. If you want your privacy, don't hand me your password a few days later, saying you want me to have it. I don't need it anymore and I'm tired of you. I really am.

Ask yourself why you love me. I don't know the answer anymore when I ask myself that.

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